i don’t even know how to start … I find it so strange that when you tell someone something, they completely ignore it.. I honestly feel bad. What do you think something changed over night? You think I’m kidding when i speak my mind and say the truth? I’m sorry that you choose not to believe whats right in front of you, but that’s your fault, not mine. I’ve taken a stand and done what I need to do to fix everything so I wouldn’t be complaining about this shit but I just need to get it out and my hands killing me and really don’t feel like physically writing right now. I just had the best week of my life (which I’ll be writing about later) I don’t need this! I’ve spoke my mind ~ I suggest you listen for your own good, cause I’m sorry but now it must be done the hard way. I like to smile and people like to see me smile so I’m just gonna smile and dance and not let a single thing get to me. I’ve gotten so much better at pushing all negativity to the side, I actually am very proud of myself..
My friend told me something the other day while at Farm Fest that really opened my eyes as to how much I’ve changed. Not as a person, but more so my attitude and the way I let others/things/situations effect me. The only thing that could get better in my life right now is to move away. Other than that, I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, food in my stomach, a job (that’s being really annoying right meow but I’ll get through it >_< ) beautiful friends, an amazing family, and music that never stops. I will get out of here soon, and I’ll be leaving all baggage behind… this place really does get the best of me, but I’m trying my hardest not to let it! I just started a new short story, and I don’t think im going to scribble all over this one and basically never finish it, I like the idea and the way I’ve been writing it. Maybe, it will turn into a full blown book ^_^
I have one wish - that what I want to work out right meow, will work out. but shhhh, don’t ask, because I won’t tell. I’m silly sometimes. But it’s quite interesting. skdjfsghkhsgklahgdsgd x________x whatever shape or form it may take anything, I just want it to be there. It gives me comfort and I like that.. and something that consistently makes me smile is always a good thing.
I just hope that was a wake up call and you realize that what’s done is done and you can’t get everything you want so easily, (or really, ever again) sorry, not sorry, but yeah.. meep!
anyways, I’d like to lay my head back down and watch a tinkerbell movie (whoops heh) for just a little while longer. Have a lovely day in the sunshineeeeeeeeeeee ~