I’ve been going through a lot lately, with myself.. and trying to figure out more about myself, there will always be so much mystery .. but I can learn more every day. There are so many things I was doing wrong in the past, I won’t say wrong.. because everyone makes mistakes, but things I wasn’t really thinking to much about before I did. I’ve moved on so strongly, taking better care of myself and the things around me. I’ve become to much more one with myself and my surroundings. I lost myself there for a little while, but I’m so glad I’m finally starting to find myself again. Hooping has helped with that so much, no matter how bad I feel, I can just pick up my hoop.. and smile, at least if it’s only for a minute, that still counts. It makes me feel free & comfortable. I’ve been drawing again, and taking more pictures ~ I’m coming along. I’m trying to hard, and most of the the time succeeding, to eliminate the things that were toxic to my health. Music is my life, if it wasn’t for all of the music I surround myself, I don’t know what I’d turn too. I love my friends and family, but music.. music is something else. I’m so grateful for the connection music has with my soul, and all the beautiful friendships I’ve made through experiencing different music throughout my life. I see too many people not appreciating life and what they have, it really makes me sad. I’ve been down that road before, and I’m sure I’ll be down it again, but I just have to keep my head up and keep on keepin on. I try to be there as best I can for my friends, and I think I do a pretty good job considering all the ups and downs all around. I try and be a source of encouragement and comfort. I want to inspire the people around me, and make them smile. I really hate when I bring negative energy around, I know everyone has their days ~ but I try extra hard to make those days not so frequent. Whenever I walk outside to walk to the train, a smile comes to my face.. especially this time of year. No matter if it’s cold, raining (well the rain gets to me a little… it’s not fun being soaked on the train/walking/at work haha) but whatever, as soon as that sun touches my skin, it’s like a little piece of heaven is coming down.
my thoughts are trailing off, as they tend to do very often.. all I really want to get across is that you can always overcome the obstacles life gives us, it’s just making things interesting, no matter how hard to struggle. Nothing beautiful ever comes easy ~ we all need to work for happiness, at least just a little bit. Love your friends and family, for they are the ones who hold you up when you’re falling down an endless black hole. Love the earth, for it provides us with life and beautiful nature, endless explorations. Be grateful that you get to experience the ups of life, even if you have to endure the downs. Everything will be alright, I promise. .. Smile ^_^
<3 you all <3
i miss this time a year ago on tumblr when people talked to me on here, it kept me busy and kept my mind okay..
need moar art
my minds way to inconsistent but i think i just put myself into determination mode.. beyond..
goals. .. goals.. goals.. please achieve them
stop wandering and keep writing
keep creating and keep talking …actually dont stop wandering but save all your money it’s much more needed later than now…depending on the situation trust me..
no go to sleep
most of the time, i challenge and push myself.. but right now. i just can’t, and these are the times where I wish I had someone who cared enough to give me a push, a burst of creativity.. shove me.. challenge me, ask me to do an art project or write them a story. Do a photo shoot for me please, put me to work. Sometimes we all need a little push from someone else. I’ve been craving that for so long it’s really all I want
smiles and warm hugs, the perfect touch and a pushhhhh to get me going.
so, life has been an absurd rollercoaster lately…but when is it not? it’s okay though, I’m learning to get through it more and more every day. Why let stupid things bother me and effect my mood/day/life. why do things that bring me the opposite of happiness? so many why’s .. such vague answers that come from the questions… music always saves my soul, but it really has been more profound lately. Bassnectar in AC was… life changing, but that’s going to get it’s own post.. it deserves it..
art, music, writing, and flow are my escape.. i just love it all.. it’s so beautiful, and anyone who can’t agree with me and hates on me and the things I love & do.. don’t be a part of my life.. simple as that. I love when I’m happy, and I know a lot of other people do to…so why not be smiling all the time. I ask myself these questions numerous times on a daily basis.. I know the answer, but I still find myself searching endlessly for answers. I’ve been meditating more, (having a moon matt is amazing) and putting my yoga matt to use more often as well. I’m trying to acquire more books to feed my brain and soul, so if anyone has any suggestions, let me know ! I’m going to work in about 10-15 minutes, it’s really getting old not having a car.. but my first step should be done hopefully new years.. praying..and that’s such a small step.. 600$ to the DMV .. i feel like it’s being stolen.. than I have 1,000$ more.. then to buy a car..then to get insurance.. it’s a struggle, but I’ll get there.
My brain is finally feeling better, and the racing thoughts and overthinking are dying down. I’m just laying low for a while, listening to music and working on my creative side.. winter really brings out more of my art and photography as well, and I’m happy about that. Alrighty, end of my silly pointless rant..
I’ll be back (:
I need to get back on my tumblr game. da fuq, where you been tristin?